Earthquakes, Tsunamis, Mother Nature, Human Nature. It's all breaking apart. What do we have to thank for it. Us. The world is fighting back. I'm a firm believer that the world does and will fight back for the damage we've caused to it. Every other "life" or beings live in a homeostasis with the environment but us... humans. We are a leech on the environment. Like the Matrix, we are a virus that overcomes the system to selfishly create only to benefit us. To bring the macro scale down to the micro, it reminds me of karma. For the past few days, maybe weeks, the phrase, "when it rains, it pours" has stuck in my head. I work the early shift on Friday's and am too lazy to prepare myself a breakfast before work so I always pick something up at the same fast food joint. For the past 3 times I have seen the same girl. She is very attractive. Something about her just makes me feel new again and that's intriguing since I haven't felt like this since the first time I saw my ex. Even my coworker, who knows my history has said that he's never seen me talk about someone this way before. Question: Am I ready to move on? Have I already moved on? At the same time, when I feel like I'm getting pushed away from one connection, it pulls me closer again... "when it rains it pours". To feel like I have no options to having to much. Why can't things be simple? Why can't I just be easily pushed away to encourage myself to pursue someone else instead of getting caught in emotional dilemmas. I really care for someone, but I'm screaming to move on since she's not trying to reciprocate. Things always have to be done the hard way to be learned, human nature. I guess sometimes you have to endure a little bit of hurt to see the right way, human nature. I guess sometimes we have to face tragedy, before we can learn from our mistakes, mother nature. Sometimes we just have to let nature take its course without trying to control it, nature...
Next Friday I will take the next step and get the know my Friday morning wake up call. Will I be ready, I honestly don't care. At this point I feel like all I can do is just let nature take its course.
About Me
- Mike Louie
- Graduate from UC Davis with a B.S. in Biological Sciences emphasizing in Neurobiology, Physiology, and Behavior. I am currently applying to Physician's Assistant and Nursing programs. I'm laid back, easy going, and open to meet anyone and everyone! Here's me saying "Hi", feel free to say "Hi" back sometime.
2 comments:
I think you're right in that we have to learn things the hard way, and in this case it's dating. Starting to date is the first step to moving on (or at least deciding whether or not you're ready to move on). You should take the excitement you have about this girl as a cue that you are ready to date, not necessarily move on. I date, but I can hardly say that I've moved on completely. While I am completely willing to date people, I don't feel that I'll completely move on until I meet the person I'm willing to take the next step with. Almost like taking hold of something-you don't actually let go of what you have until you have something new to hold onto. And that's just how it seems to go with each new relationship I have. That said, I've noticed how dating has changed me personally. Initially, I took dating lightheartedly because I kept telling myself that I'd just keep comparing each guy to HIM. As time goes on, I'm finding that I'm doing less comparing and staying more open-minded about the individual. I think you're going into this with the right attitude. Who cares if it doesn't work out? You'll never know unless you try, and if it doesn't work out, oh well-LIFE GOES ON...
Whoever said "live and learn" must have been exactly where we are at one point. Good luck Mike!
I agree with what Karen said, you might not have completely moved on Mike but I also think you are ready to date since you have met somebody who can spark those feelings in you. No regrets after you try; hope it all works out but as Karen pointed out, even if it doesn't work, life sure does go on and another person who will spark feelings in you will come into your life again. I also wish you Good Luck too Mike =)
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